In December of 2007, I spent eight days in Cozumel, and had an incredible experience of being in the moment, following spiritual promptings, and having my soul filled to overflowing. I met a young man, Rafael, at the information desk of the resort where I was staying, and we had some incredible talks about the Mayans, meditation experiences, God, The Universe, and even Pythagoras of ancient Greece.
As I visited the beaches, the warm sand and pulsing ocean waves energized my soul. As I explored the ruins at San Gervasio, I could sense the powerful spirit of the ancient Mayans who once roamed those thick dense jungles.
Since returning home from my short travels in Cozumel, I have often felt a sense of ‘being drawn’ back to the island for further experiences.
After my dream with the bicycles hanging from my ceiling, I began to imagine all of the places in the world that I want to visit, and that same powerful energy kept drawing me back to Cozumel. I told myself, “Ok, I’ll go there for two weeks.” Immediately a feeling inside spoke “No, that is not long enough.” I told myself, “Ok, I’ll go for a month.” Again, my internal voice said “No, not long enough.” I eventually settled in on a peaceful feeling that four months is a good starting time, but I have an internal awareness that it will most likely be longer. I also have an acute sense that I will probably be taking down many other bicycles and riding them elsewhere before returning home.
I now recognize that my commitment to a four-month period was just enough to cause me to completely uproot myself from my current living arrangements. Anything shorter may have given me cause to maintain my roots, and would have hindered future exploration. Now, what few belongings I possess are in storage, and I am free to take down as many bicycles as my heart desires.
What do I hope to accomplish while in Cozumel?
While I have a strong intention to focus on my writing, and a hope of perhaps even finishing the book that I am working on—I have neither attachments nor personal investments in the outcome of this trip. I am fully aware that the universe may have a different purpose for my travels, and all I need really do is to stay connected to my inner source, and to let that purpose flow through me in whatever way it so chooses. In other words, I am taking a step into the gentle fog of the unknown, trusting my heart, not really knowing what this trip will bring.
I am fully aware, however, that this trip will be a deep spiritual journey, where I look within and not without. I sense an incredible growth process, just beginning to unfold in its infancy.
Being in Cozumel will put me in an entirely new world and culture, entirely different from the world I know today. I will not be able to rely on my traditional experiences, and will instead be more “in the moment,” where I am open to new growth, spiritual insights, exploration, and other ways of thinking.
I also am overwhelmed with a strong inner drive to immerse myself in the culture and to learn the language. Without knowing why, I truly believe that this will play a significant role in my future life journeys.
I have never been more excited. I feel like a child in a mall full of candy stores, anxious to get started on my journey.
© Brenda Larsen, 2009
